Everything done in darkness, will eventually be brought into the light.
I ran, but all it did was keep me one step ahead of my past. I tried to start over; new name, new identity. But you can’t change your soul.
A fresh start at college was just what I needed. For a while, it worked. I was the party girl, the one that seemed confident, but it was a lie.
When guys kissed me–I felt only pain.
When they touched me–Nothing but fear.
Deep inside, every girl wants to be the beauty in the story, to find someone that will see you as their world.
But the truth? I was the beast. And as much as I wanted redemption, I wasn’t fool enough to think I’d ever get it.
Until he walked into my life.
I wasn’t prepared to fall for someone. My scars were too deep, the wounds too raw. But he offered me peace, he offered me security. I should have known it was just another lie–I should have known that falling in love with my professor was a bad idea.
But I was powerless to stop myself from falling.
And he was powerless to catch me.
Because the darkness finally caught up to me, and as fate would have it, a cruel twist almost bled me dry. But I’m stronger than I knew. I’m stronger than you think.
You think you know my story, but you don’t….after all everyone has Shame in their lives– and I’m no longer afraid to show you mine.
I’m here today with author Rachel Van Dyken, to talk about her latest release Shame, book #3 in the Ruin series.
J: Good Afternoon Rachel how are you doing today?
R: I’m doing great!! I finally feel like release stuff is starting to calm down so that’s good.
J: So you just released Shame which is the third book in the Ruin series. How does this book differ from the other books in the series?
R: This book is a lot darker, in fact I’ve had several readers comment that it’s darker than some of my mafia stuff. It’s not necessarily violent but the reader definitely gets into the mind of a sociopath and I think that part mixed in with the whole “stalker” effect of the story really sets the scene for Lisa’s book.
J: Can you tell us where you came up with the idea for Shame? What research if any you did to get inside the mind of Taylor.
R: Honestly, I really wanted to do a book on emotional bullying and domestic violence but I was struggling on how to actually do that with Lisa’s story and do it well. I came up with the journal entry idea so that the reader could get a glimpse into the horror of what Lisa went through without having to do a lot of flashbacks. To get into Taylor’s mind, I just jumped on all the research I had to do for my undergrad psych degree and added in all of the emotional bullying and sociopath studies I did while working as a school counselor.
J: I’ve read Shame and I must say it’s very different from anything that you have ever written. Where did you draw your inspiration for the characters in this book?
R: I have no idea. Haha, I honestly can’t say a specific source or thing inspired me…maybe it was just Lisa’s story that inspired me, the idea that there are women out there that suffer in silence. On the outside everything looks great but they suffer with such severe mental abuse that they no longer feel human, that was my inspiration.
J: Lately a lot of books have seemed to been released that have to do with mental illness, do you think that this is a new trend in the industry?
R: I’m not sure but I think it’s something that more authors are touching on because of the world we live in. It’s a reality and it’s something that we all experience on a daily basis.
J: You’ve written some other series that deal with very different topics, when you switch between writing the different series is it hard to get re-focused when you begin the next book?
R: Usually it’s not too bad, I use music and book playlists as a way to separate myself and my characters. If that fails, I go for a walk
J: Recently we have found out that you are going to become a mommy and that you are having a little boy, Congratulations on that news. We are excited for you and the Little Van Dyken. With you becoming a mom soon do you think that you will possibly write one of your characters having the journey to motherhood in any of your series?
R: I WANT TO SO BAD! I love reading stories about families so I think it would be great to do, possibly next year when I slow down.
J: Who are some of your literary influences, or do you have a must read author when they release a new book?
R:Oh goodness…that’s like asking to name my favorite flavor of ice cream, how about all of them? I love Jennifer Probst, Julia Quinn, Sophia Jordan, Yeah my list can go on and on and on.
J: What made you want to become an author? You were a school guidance counselor at one time correct? Do you think your work with some of the youth reflects into your work at all?
R: My job working as a counselor was really stressful I also worked for the state working with kids who had down syndrome and severe psychological disorders…in order to escape and deal with the stress I started writing and haven’t looked back since!
J: Well I think that’s about all I have for you now. Is there anything else that you would like to share with the readers about Shame and maybe tell us what’s next from you?
R: I hope they enjoy Lisa’s story! And, next…well I have some more mafia coming up in December and February as well as a few blacklist titles releasing
J: I’d like to thank you for joining me today and we are all really looking forward to more books from you in the future.
R: Thank you so much for having me!
Well that’s all we have today, I hope that you enjoyed this interview with Rachel and that you’ll pick up Shame available now! It’s definitely worth the read!!!
Rachel seriously drives your anxiety and emotions to a new level with Shame! I was a bally of nerves reading through this book. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out what Tristan’s motives were and why, it all finally became clear and then I wanted to hate him! But I loved him, and then I hated him at the same time. He is probably one of her most controversial characters written to date. Most of the time Rachel’s leading men are funny, sometimes a little scary, but never has she written someone like Tristan before.
Lisa is also new territory, her character was living behind a world of hurt and pain that she endured in the most impressionable part of her life. Adolescents tend to take things so much harder then adults or young children. As children we are taught to forgive and forget, but how do you do that when someone does the unthinkable and the unforgivable. Lisa was bullied, abused emotional and it was all recorded in the pages of a demented mans journal. The things that Taylor led Lisa to do were unthinkable and life changing for the victims. As we find out in the story some things are never forgotten and are hard to make go away.
This is a challenging read at every turn your either suspicious of Tristan or hurting and terrified for Lisa, and in true Rachel fashion she adds a twist that you might not ever see coming. In the end I was left with raw emotions and feelings for all of the characters in this book. We get to see our familiar and beloved characters from the previous books. Gabe is a bit part of Lisa’s life and his need to protect and shield her goes above and beyond in this book, which made me love him even more. Overall I give this book 5. It was a great read and I highly recommend it if you like a good emotional read that will keep you guessing!
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