Beyond What Is Given
Synopsis:Lt. Grayson Masters is focused on graduating the Apache helicopter course, and the last thing he needs is his gorgeous new roommate Samantha Fitzgerald distracting him. While her smart mouth and free spirit are irresistibly irritating, he can’t deny their off-the-charts chemistry, no matter how hard he tries.
Having just been expelled from college, Sam has no business digging for Grayson’s secrets while she’s hiding her own, but that doesn’t stop her from trying to tear down his walls. Each barrier she busts through drops one of her own, though, and she’s not prepared for the truth: another woman laid claim to Grayson’s heart long ago.
Falling in love is something neither Grayson nor Sam can afford, and when that line is crossed and secrets are exposed, they’ll learn that sometimes it’s the answered prayers that will put you through hell.
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Beyond What Is Given
“Samantha?” His eyes softened, revealing the give in him, and it cracked my own defenses.
“Have you ever made a mistake, Grayson? And I don’t mean the kind that costs you an apology. I mean one that destroys you? Where you lie awake at night, unable to sleep, because you’re terrified of what’s going to happen the next day, and the one after that? Where you’d give anything, and I do mean anything to go back and make a different a choice? Where you’re sick all the time at the thought of what you’ve done? Because I have. I’ve crumbled my entire future, shredded any hope of finishing college, and killed off who I used to be. And I don’t…I don’t know how to come back from something like that.”
I jerked back, but he held me immobile against him.
“Stop, and listen to me. I’m not going to belittle you by saying nothing is that bad, because some things are. Things happen that change who we are, and what we’re capable of. So you’re not going to ‘come back’ from that any more than you’re going to erase whatever you did. You have to decide if you’re going to try to keep patching yourself up or if you’re going to tear down and rebuild.”
“I don’t know how to do that.”
“You wade through the pain, and the guilt, and the excuses you make to yourself. Stop drowning in alcohol to numb the fear, and suck up the bitter taste of accountability. You move on with who you are now. It’s not easy. If you think you screwed up that badly, then maybe you did, but you also have to leave room for the chance that you didn’t. Have you talked about it?”
I shook my head. There were two of us who knew the whole truth, and that circle was big enough. “I’m not sure I’m ready to let go of everyone’s vision of who I am. It’s so much prettier than the truth.”
“Not even Ember?”
“Definitely not think-through-everything-twice Ember. She wouldn’t understand, and I’m not sure I could handle her reaction.”
He swallowed and broke our stare like it had become too much because we both knew the truth—it had. “That’s the hardest part, letting someone see who you really are—scars and all. I’m…” He cleared his throat. “You need to trust someone enough to tell them the truth. Make peace with it before it eats you alive. I listen really well if you don’t have anyone else.”
I scrambled to throw up a wall between us. It was safer when he was hurling snotty comments at me. That, I knew how to handle. But this Grayson? The one holding me carefully, keeping me warm while the storm raged outside, offering to help carry the crippling weight destroying me? I didn’t know what the hell to do with that one.
“Why would you even offer? Everything you know about me is a mess. I drink too much, wear too-little clothes, dance on bars, and impose on everyone around me because I can’t get my shit together.”
“You can get your shit together, you’ve just chosen not to up until now. You took that first step with Maggie. I’m offering because I’ve made that kind of mistake, Sam, the one you don’t come back from. I look at you, and I see what I went through. It’s too late for me.” He took a deep breath. “But you? You’re going to spring back, so yeah, I’m offering.”
“As friends?” I held my breath, needing to hear it. The push and pull, the attraction, it was all there on my side, but I wasn’t sure about his, and I wasn’t about to make an ass out of myself. We were roommates, and this could get complicated really quickly.
Our eyes locked, and heat skimmed down my limbs, leaving chills in its wake. “We’re both adults—”
“Well, trying to be,” I joked.
His lips quirked up at the corners. Almost a smile. “Right. I’m not going to say that I’m not insanely attracted to you. I don’t lie. Ever. Plus, I’d have to be dead not to realize the way you affect me. But I’m also not in any position to act on it, and let’s be honest—you’re not, either. But I think we can stop picking each other apart and be friends.”
“Friends that are insanely attracted to each other?”
He inhaled sharply, like my attraction to him had been some secret. Yeah right. I’m pretty sure my body threw out “screw me now” signals the minute he walked into a room, even when I was angry with him. Hell, perversely, especially when I was angry with him.
The siren wailed again, and I jumped, despite the exhaustion pummeling me.
“An hour to go,” I muttered, looking at my iPad.
“Relax and try to get some sleep.”
“Like there’s a chance of that.” But he tucked the comforter up to my chin and drew me closer, so my head rested on his chest.
“Just try. Some of us have to get up for work in the morning.” His tone was light and teasing, so I didn’t jump his case about giving me shit.
I yawned, feeling my body betray me and start to shut down like he’d flipped some magic Sam-sleep button. “I’m glad we can be friends.” Sleep slurred my words.
I am a huge Rebecca Yarros fan. I absolutely love this series, so when I got that opportunity to read this story early- I was SO excited!!!! I wasn’t sure I could love it more than Eyes Turned Skyward- but I was still excited to hear it.
Sam is looking for a fresh start. After leaving her past behind – she moves in with her best friend Ember’s boyfriend Josh, his best friend Jagger, and the other friend Grayson. Now having to share a bathroom with this Grayson guy- things are feeling awkward. He’s kind of a jerk and completely OCD and Sam is the opposite of everything he is.
Grayson agrees to having a 4th room mate assuming that “Sam” is a guy. Only when Sam moves in, she’s anything but that. His attraction to her is immediate and unwelcomed so he puts up an immediate wall- he has no room for Sam or anyone else. He’s living such a secretive life as it is- trying to juggle her would just make things even worse.
But despite the fight- Sam and Grayson have a connection. As much as they both try to fight it- it’s there. Opposites attract and they are like magnets. But the secrets that both these characters hold are of epic proportions.Secrets are never good. When you are reading this story and you KNOW there is a big one.. A HUGE one.. The devastating kind- your stomach is in knots, your heart is on the verge of breaking, and you literally are waiting for the ball to drop.
“I was already his. Every part of me had fallen in love with Grayson.”
And then it does….
You think everything is ruined. How will they ever recover? Can they even mend this? Can I EVER FORGIVE THIS AUTHOR?? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY????
“She’s fire but the kind that burns me just right. She doesn’t take my crap, and she’s a giant pain in my A$$. But when I kiss her…. I can breathe.”
But the thing is- true love never ends. It doesn’t fail. It forgives and it thrives no matter what terrible situations get thrown at it. And Sam and Gray- I believe have true love. But even with true love- there are times when you have to let someone go.. Because you love them…..
“So go ahead and fall. I’ve gotten really good at catching you..”
This book was phenomenal. In my opinion- her best to date. I absolutely loved Sam and Grayson’s story. I loved her sassy ways and his dirty mouth and smirks. “Excuse me while my panties evaporate” SWOOOOOON.
“You always have all of me, Sam. Every second I’m breathing, I’m yours.”
HUGE FIVE STAR READ! DO NO MISS IT!!!